Tuesday, November 8, 2011
November Goals....
The only goal I got for this month is to not fail. If I can manage to not fail, or jump off a cliff I will be one happy camper
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
The Poem that started the Movie...
Nightmare Before Christmas original poem
It was late one fall in Halloweenland,
and the air had quite a chill.
Against the moon a skeleton sat,
alone upon a hill.
He was tall and thin with a bat bow tie;
Jack Skellington was his name.
He was tired and bored in Halloweenland
and the air had quite a chill.
Against the moon a skeleton sat,
alone upon a hill.
He was tall and thin with a bat bow tie;
Jack Skellington was his name.
He was tired and bored in Halloweenland
"I'm sick of the scaring, the terror, the fright.
I'm tired of being something that goes bump in the night.
I'm bored with leering my horrible glances,
And my feet hurt from dancing those skeleton dances.
I don't like graveyards, and I need something new.
There must be more to life than just yelling,
'Boo!'"
I'm tired of being something that goes bump in the night.
I'm bored with leering my horrible glances,
And my feet hurt from dancing those skeleton dances.
I don't like graveyards, and I need something new.
There must be more to life than just yelling,
'Boo!'"
Then out from a grave, with a curl and a twist,
Came a whimpering, whining, spectral mist.
It was a little ghost dog, with a faint little bark,
And a jack-o'-lantern nose that glowed in the dark.
It was Jack's dog, Zero, the best friend he had,
But Jack hardly noticed, which made Zero sad.
Came a whimpering, whining, spectral mist.
It was a little ghost dog, with a faint little bark,
And a jack-o'-lantern nose that glowed in the dark.
It was Jack's dog, Zero, the best friend he had,
But Jack hardly noticed, which made Zero sad.
All that night and through the next day,
Jack wandered and walked.
He was filled with dismay.
Then deep in the forest, just before night,
Jack came upon an amazing sight.
Not twenty feet from the spot where he stood
Were three massive doorways carved in wood.
He stood before them, completely in awe,
His gaze transfixed by one special door.
Entranced and excited, with a slight sense of worry,
Jack opened the door to a white, windy flurry.
Jack wandered and walked.
He was filled with dismay.
Then deep in the forest, just before night,
Jack came upon an amazing sight.
Not twenty feet from the spot where he stood
Were three massive doorways carved in wood.
He stood before them, completely in awe,
His gaze transfixed by one special door.
Entranced and excited, with a slight sense of worry,
Jack opened the door to a white, windy flurry.
Jack didn't know it, but he'd fallen down
In the middle of a place called Christmas Town!
Immersed in the light, Jack was no longer haunted.
He had finally found the feeling he wanted.
And so that his friends wouldn't think him a liar,
He took the present filled stockings that hung by the fire.
He took candy and toys that were stacked on the shelves
And a picture of Santa with all of his elves.
He took lights and ornaments and the star from the tree,
And from the Christmas Town sign, he took the big letter C.
In the middle of a place called Christmas Town!
Immersed in the light, Jack was no longer haunted.
He had finally found the feeling he wanted.
And so that his friends wouldn't think him a liar,
He took the present filled stockings that hung by the fire.
He took candy and toys that were stacked on the shelves
And a picture of Santa with all of his elves.
He took lights and ornaments and the star from the tree,
And from the Christmas Town sign, he took the big letter C.
He picked up everything that sparkled or glowed.
He even picked up a handful of snow.
He grabbed it all, and without being seen,
He took it all back to Halloween.
He even picked up a handful of snow.
He grabbed it all, and without being seen,
He took it all back to Halloween.
Back in Halloween a group of Jack's peers
Stared in amazement at his Christmas souvenires.
For this wondrous vision none were prepared.
Most were excited, though a few were quite scared!
Stared in amazement at his Christmas souvenires.
For this wondrous vision none were prepared.
Most were excited, though a few were quite scared!
For the next few days, while it lightninged and thundered,
Jack sat alone and obsessively wondered.
"Why is it they get to spread laughter and cheer
While we stalk the graveyards, spreading panic and fear?
Well, I could be Santa, and I could spread cheer!
Why does he get to do it year after year?"
Outraged by injustice, Jack thought and he thought.
Then he got an idea. "Yes. . .yes. . .why not!"
Jack sat alone and obsessively wondered.
"Why is it they get to spread laughter and cheer
While we stalk the graveyards, spreading panic and fear?
Well, I could be Santa, and I could spread cheer!
Why does he get to do it year after year?"
Outraged by injustice, Jack thought and he thought.
Then he got an idea. "Yes. . .yes. . .why not!"
In Christmas Town, Santa was making some toys
When through the din he heard a soft noise.
He answered the door, and to his surprise,
He saw weird little creatures in strange disguise.
They were altogether ugly and rather petite.
As they opened their sacks, they yelled, "Trick or treat!"
Then a confused Santa was shoved into a sack
And taken to Halloween to see mastermind Jack.
When through the din he heard a soft noise.
He answered the door, and to his surprise,
He saw weird little creatures in strange disguise.
They were altogether ugly and rather petite.
As they opened their sacks, they yelled, "Trick or treat!"
Then a confused Santa was shoved into a sack
And taken to Halloween to see mastermind Jack.
In Halloween everyone gathered once more,
For they'd never seen a Santa before
And as they cautiously gazed at this strange old man,
Jack related to Santa his masterful plan:
"My dear Mr. Claus, I think it's a crime
That you've got to be Santa all of the time!
But now I will give presents, and I will spread cheer.
We're changing places I'm Santa this year.
It is I who will say Merry Christmas to you!
So you may lie in my coffin, creak doors, and yell, 'Boo!'
And please, Mr. Claus, don't think ill of my plan.
For I'll do the best Santa job that I can."
For they'd never seen a Santa before
And as they cautiously gazed at this strange old man,
Jack related to Santa his masterful plan:
"My dear Mr. Claus, I think it's a crime
That you've got to be Santa all of the time!
But now I will give presents, and I will spread cheer.
We're changing places I'm Santa this year.
It is I who will say Merry Christmas to you!
So you may lie in my coffin, creak doors, and yell, 'Boo!'
And please, Mr. Claus, don't think ill of my plan.
For I'll do the best Santa job that I can."
And though Jack and his friends thought they'd do a good job,
Their idea of Christmas was still quite macabre.
They were packed up and ready on Christmas Eve day
When Jack hitched his reindeer to his sleek coffin sleigh,
But on Christmas Eve as they were about to begin,
A Halloween fog slowly rolled in.
Jack said, "We can't leave; this fog's just too thick.
There will be no Christmas, and I can't be St. Nick."
Then a small glowing light pierced through the fog.
What could it be?. . .It was Zero, Jack's dog!
Their idea of Christmas was still quite macabre.
They were packed up and ready on Christmas Eve day
When Jack hitched his reindeer to his sleek coffin sleigh,
But on Christmas Eve as they were about to begin,
A Halloween fog slowly rolled in.
Jack said, "We can't leave; this fog's just too thick.
There will be no Christmas, and I can't be St. Nick."
Then a small glowing light pierced through the fog.
What could it be?. . .It was Zero, Jack's dog!
Jack said, "Zero, with your nose so bright,
Won't you guide my sleigh tonight?"
Won't you guide my sleigh tonight?"
And to be so needed was Zero's great dream,
So he joyously flew to the head of the team.
And as the skeletal sleigh started its ghostly flight,
Jack cackled, "Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!"
So he joyously flew to the head of the team.
And as the skeletal sleigh started its ghostly flight,
Jack cackled, "Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!"
'Twas the nightmare before Christmas, and all though the house,
Not a creature was peaceful, not even a mouse.
The stockings all hung by the chimney with care,
When opened that morning would cause quite a scare!
The children, all nestled so snug in their beds,
Would have nightmares of monsters and skeleton heads.
The moon that hung over the new-fallen snow
Cast an eerie pall over the city below,
And Santa Claus's laughter now sounded like groans,
And the jingling bells like chattering bones.
And what to their wondering eyes should appear,
But a coffin sleigh with skeleton deer.
And a skeletal driver so ugly and sick
They knew in a moment, this can't be St. Nick!
From house to house, with a true sense of joy,
Jack happily issued each present and toy.
From rooftop to rooftop he jumped and he skipped,
Leaving presents that seemed to be straight from a crypt!
Unaware that the world was in panic and fear,
Jack merrily spread his own brand of cheer.
Not a creature was peaceful, not even a mouse.
The stockings all hung by the chimney with care,
When opened that morning would cause quite a scare!
The children, all nestled so snug in their beds,
Would have nightmares of monsters and skeleton heads.
The moon that hung over the new-fallen snow
Cast an eerie pall over the city below,
And Santa Claus's laughter now sounded like groans,
And the jingling bells like chattering bones.
And what to their wondering eyes should appear,
But a coffin sleigh with skeleton deer.
And a skeletal driver so ugly and sick
They knew in a moment, this can't be St. Nick!
From house to house, with a true sense of joy,
Jack happily issued each present and toy.
From rooftop to rooftop he jumped and he skipped,
Leaving presents that seemed to be straight from a crypt!
Unaware that the world was in panic and fear,
Jack merrily spread his own brand of cheer.
He visited the house of Susie and Dave;
They got a Gumby and Pokey from the grave.
Then on to the home of little Jane Neeman;
She got a baby doll possessed by a demon.
A monstrous train with tentacle tracks,
A ghoulish puppet wielding an ax,
A man eating plant disguised as a wreath,
And a vampire teddy bear with very sharp teeth.
They got a Gumby and Pokey from the grave.
Then on to the home of little Jane Neeman;
She got a baby doll possessed by a demon.
A monstrous train with tentacle tracks,
A ghoulish puppet wielding an ax,
A man eating plant disguised as a wreath,
And a vampire teddy bear with very sharp teeth.
There were screams of terror, but Jack didn't hear it,
He was much too involved with his own Christmas spirit!
Jack finally looked down from his dark, starry frights
And saw the commotion, the noise, and the light.
"Why, they're celebrating, it looks like such fun!
They're thanking me for the good job that I've done."
But what he thought were fireworks meant as goodwill
Were bullets and missiles intended to kill.
Then amidst the barrage of artillery fire,
Jack urged Zero to go higher and higher.
And away they all flew like the storm of a thistle,
Until they were hit by a well guided missile.
And as they fell on the cemetery, way out of sight,
Was heard, "Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good
night."
He was much too involved with his own Christmas spirit!
Jack finally looked down from his dark, starry frights
And saw the commotion, the noise, and the light.
"Why, they're celebrating, it looks like such fun!
They're thanking me for the good job that I've done."
But what he thought were fireworks meant as goodwill
Were bullets and missiles intended to kill.
Then amidst the barrage of artillery fire,
Jack urged Zero to go higher and higher.
And away they all flew like the storm of a thistle,
Until they were hit by a well guided missile.
And as they fell on the cemetery, way out of sight,
Was heard, "Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good
night."
Jack pulled himself up on a large stone cross,
And from there he reviewed his incredible loss.
"I thought I could be Santa, I had such belief"
Jack was confused and filled with great grief.
Not knowing where to turn, he looked toward the sky,
Then he slumped on the grave and he started to cry.
And as Zero and Jack lay crumpled on the ground,
They suddenly heard a familiar sound.
And from there he reviewed his incredible loss.
"I thought I could be Santa, I had such belief"
Jack was confused and filled with great grief.
Not knowing where to turn, he looked toward the sky,
Then he slumped on the grave and he started to cry.
And as Zero and Jack lay crumpled on the ground,
They suddenly heard a familiar sound.
"My dear Jack," said Santa, "I applaud your intent.
I know wreaking such havoc was not what you meant.
And so you are sad and feeling quite blue,
But taking over Christmas was the wrong thing to do.
I hope you realize Halloween's the right place for you.
There's a lot more, Jack, that I'd like to say,
But now I must hurry, for it's almost Christmas day."
Then he jumped in his sleigh, and with a wink of an eye,
He said, "Merry Christmas," and he bid them good bye.
I know wreaking such havoc was not what you meant.
And so you are sad and feeling quite blue,
But taking over Christmas was the wrong thing to do.
I hope you realize Halloween's the right place for you.
There's a lot more, Jack, that I'd like to say,
But now I must hurry, for it's almost Christmas day."
Then he jumped in his sleigh, and with a wink of an eye,
He said, "Merry Christmas," and he bid them good bye.
Back home, Jack was sad, but then, like a dream,
Santa brought Christmas to the land of Halloween.
Santa brought Christmas to the land of Halloween.
the end
Poem copyright Tim Burton
Poem copyright Tim Burton
Friday, October 21, 2011
Next Year
My goal is to have a house by Halloween of next year.
I'm going to throw a Halloween Party.
31 Days of Horror Movie Fest. It will be epic.
I will even dress up. Got to lose weight first.
I'm giving myself a year to accomplish this.
I'm going to throw a Halloween Party.
31 Days of Horror Movie Fest. It will be epic.
I will even dress up. Got to lose weight first.
I'm giving myself a year to accomplish this.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Sex is Natural...
"Sex is a natural part of life, there is nothing gross about it."
I beg to differ. I have no problem with sex, it is a natural part of life, no doubt. It does however, have the moments of gross. None of these things I have an issue about. My issue is there is a time and place to talk about it and certain people to talk to it about. Do I really want to be in line and hear you on the phone talking about the kinky sex you had last night?! NO, I do not. Do I want to read on your fb about the new postions you tried? No I do not. Nor do I want to hear about it at work. If you want to talk to me in person, then fine. But only if we are friends. Just because I work with you, doesn't mean I want to know about your sex life.
Don't get me wrong, I don't think that sex is a taboo topic, I just think now days, people have no self respect when it comes to sex. There are some things that don't need to public knowledge. Sometimes, I wish we lived in the time, where sex was discreete and not all up in your face. There is just no mystery anymore.
I beg to differ. I have no problem with sex, it is a natural part of life, no doubt. It does however, have the moments of gross. None of these things I have an issue about. My issue is there is a time and place to talk about it and certain people to talk to it about. Do I really want to be in line and hear you on the phone talking about the kinky sex you had last night?! NO, I do not. Do I want to read on your fb about the new postions you tried? No I do not. Nor do I want to hear about it at work. If you want to talk to me in person, then fine. But only if we are friends. Just because I work with you, doesn't mean I want to know about your sex life.
Don't get me wrong, I don't think that sex is a taboo topic, I just think now days, people have no self respect when it comes to sex. There are some things that don't need to public knowledge. Sometimes, I wish we lived in the time, where sex was discreete and not all up in your face. There is just no mystery anymore.
Monday, October 3, 2011
October Theme....
SOMETHING'S COMING
TONY
Could be!
Who knows?
There's something due any day;
I will know right away,
Soon as it shows.
It may come cannonballing down through the sky,
Gleam in its eye,
Bright as a rose!
Who knows?
It's only just out of reach,
Down the block, on a beach,
Under a tree.
I got a feeling there's a miracle due,
Gonna come true,
Coming to me!
Could it be? Yes, it could.
Something's coming, something good,
If I can wait!
Something's coming, I don't know what it is,
But it is
Gonna be great!
With a click, with a shock,
Phone'll jingle, door'll knock,
Open the latch!
Something's coming, don't know when, but it's soon;
Catch the moon,
One-handed catch!
Around the corner,
Or whistling down the river,
Come on, deliver
To me!
Will it be? Yes, it will.
Maybe just by holding still,
It'll be there!
Come on, something, come on in, don't be shy,
Meet a guy,
Pull up a chair!
The air is humming,
And something great is coming!
Who knows?
It's only just out of reach,
Down the block, on a beach,
Maybe tonight . . .
TONY
Could be!
Who knows?
There's something due any day;
I will know right away,
Soon as it shows.
It may come cannonballing down through the sky,
Gleam in its eye,
Bright as a rose!
Who knows?
It's only just out of reach,
Down the block, on a beach,
Under a tree.
I got a feeling there's a miracle due,
Gonna come true,
Coming to me!
Could it be? Yes, it could.
Something's coming, something good,
If I can wait!
Something's coming, I don't know what it is,
But it is
Gonna be great!
With a click, with a shock,
Phone'll jingle, door'll knock,
Open the latch!
Something's coming, don't know when, but it's soon;
Catch the moon,
One-handed catch!
Around the corner,
Or whistling down the river,
Come on, deliver
To me!
Will it be? Yes, it will.
Maybe just by holding still,
It'll be there!
Come on, something, come on in, don't be shy,
Meet a guy,
Pull up a chair!
The air is humming,
And something great is coming!
Who knows?
It's only just out of reach,
Down the block, on a beach,
Maybe tonight . . .
Sunday, October 2, 2011
October Goals....
1) Get the manager spot!
2) Get my tattoo. This depends on if I can get the mananger spot. That's right, I've decided that will be my gift for me when, not if, but, WHEN I get the manager spot.
3) 31 Days of Horror Movies
4) Write more. I have a new computer and new journals, there is no reason for me not to be doing this.
5) Read like 20 damn books. I am on the verge of nothing making my goal of 100.
6) Clean my apt from top to bottom
7) Start making lists of Xmas gifts for people
8) DVR big time. That thing is so damn full
9) Less soda.....yea cause that always goes so well
10) Do more with people. Ha we shall see. People plus Shanna doesn't always go well
2) Get my tattoo. This depends on if I can get the mananger spot. That's right, I've decided that will be my gift for me when, not if, but, WHEN I get the manager spot.
3) 31 Days of Horror Movies
4) Write more. I have a new computer and new journals, there is no reason for me not to be doing this.
5) Read like 20 damn books. I am on the verge of nothing making my goal of 100.
6) Clean my apt from top to bottom
7) Start making lists of Xmas gifts for people
8) DVR big time. That thing is so damn full
9) Less soda.....yea cause that always goes so well
10) Do more with people. Ha we shall see. People plus Shanna doesn't always go well
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Raw Nerves....
I feel like this week I am a bundle of raw energy waiting to explode.
My job status is up in the air. I passed on one opportunity to try for an opportunity at work. But the person I'm going ageist is better at interviews and words and speaking. To lose the spot because of that would devastate me. Because I know I'm better at the spot.
My sister has a new boy. Well I guess she has two new boys. Both of course love her and she gets like my mom when there are boys involved. I get kicked to the curb. I'm always being left out. Sometimes I think if it wasn't for me trying so hard we wouldn't be so close. Makes me sad because she is my bestfriend and if you know me, then you'd know I'd do anything for her.
And there is my friend, we'll call her, Emotions. I feel this huge gulf of space between us. She is so back and forth, I just don't know what I'm going to get. And yesterday, her actions at work cause me to end up in the managers office crying.
There are just days I can't win for losing. I suck at life.
I'll just stay all Aloney On My Owney
My job status is up in the air. I passed on one opportunity to try for an opportunity at work. But the person I'm going ageist is better at interviews and words and speaking. To lose the spot because of that would devastate me. Because I know I'm better at the spot.
My sister has a new boy. Well I guess she has two new boys. Both of course love her and she gets like my mom when there are boys involved. I get kicked to the curb. I'm always being left out. Sometimes I think if it wasn't for me trying so hard we wouldn't be so close. Makes me sad because she is my bestfriend and if you know me, then you'd know I'd do anything for her.
And there is my friend, we'll call her, Emotions. I feel this huge gulf of space between us. She is so back and forth, I just don't know what I'm going to get. And yesterday, her actions at work cause me to end up in the managers office crying.
There are just days I can't win for losing. I suck at life.
I'll just stay all Aloney On My Owney
Saturday, August 27, 2011
What she said...minus the vamp part
Going Through The Motions (Buffy, Demons)
BUFFY
Every single night
The same arrangement
I go out and fight the fight
Still, I always feel the strange estrangement
Nothing here is real
Nothing here is right
I've been making shows of trading blows
Just hoping no one knows
That I've been going through the motions
Walking through the part
Nothing seems to penetrate my heart
I was always brave and kind of righteous
Now I find I'm wavering
Crawl out of your grave
You find this fight just doesn't mean a thing
VAMP
She ain't got that swing
BUFFY
Thanks for noticing
VAMPS AND GOAT GUY
She is pretty well with fiends from hell
But lately, we can tell
That she's just going through the motions (Going through the motions)
Facing it some how
GOAT GUY
She's not even half the girl she - ow.
BUFFY
Will I stay this way forever?
Sleepwalk through my life's endeavor?
"HANDSOME" GUY
How can I repay - -
BUFFY
Whatever.
I don't want to be
Going through the motions
Losing all my drive
I can't even see
If this is really me
And I just want to be
Alive!
BUFFY
Every single night
The same arrangement
I go out and fight the fight
Still, I always feel the strange estrangement
Nothing here is real
Nothing here is right
I've been making shows of trading blows
Just hoping no one knows
That I've been going through the motions
Walking through the part
Nothing seems to penetrate my heart
I was always brave and kind of righteous
Now I find I'm wavering
Crawl out of your grave
You find this fight just doesn't mean a thing
VAMP
She ain't got that swing
BUFFY
Thanks for noticing
VAMPS AND GOAT GUY
She is pretty well with fiends from hell
But lately, we can tell
That she's just going through the motions (Going through the motions)
Facing it some how
GOAT GUY
She's not even half the girl she - ow.
BUFFY
Will I stay this way forever?
Sleepwalk through my life's endeavor?
"HANDSOME" GUY
How can I repay - -
BUFFY
Whatever.
I don't want to be
Going through the motions
Losing all my drive
I can't even see
If this is really me
And I just want to be
Alive!
Friday, August 26, 2011
Looking for a cliff
Sometimes I have these moments where all I want to do is find a cliff. I don't always feel like jumping off of it. I feel like if I just stand there and feel the wind and watch the waves crash against the rocks, that I'll be fine. That if I just imagine myself being slammed against the rocks then maybe, just maybe I'll stop looking for that cliff to jump off.
I know that no matter how I feel I would never actually do something stupid like that. I've gone through way too many suicide attempts by my dad and I wouldn't put people through that. Sometimes I wonder if anyone would care? But the fact of the matter is, I would never ever want to cause Manda that kind of pain. Nor would I want her to have to explain to Kayleigh why I won't be around.
So in the end, just thinking about it stops me from doing it. That and the fact that I just do not have the energy to do some thing like that. And here's the biggie: I am a chicken and can not handle pain.
And that is my morbid thoughts of the day.
I know that no matter how I feel I would never actually do something stupid like that. I've gone through way too many suicide attempts by my dad and I wouldn't put people through that. Sometimes I wonder if anyone would care? But the fact of the matter is, I would never ever want to cause Manda that kind of pain. Nor would I want her to have to explain to Kayleigh why I won't be around.
So in the end, just thinking about it stops me from doing it. That and the fact that I just do not have the energy to do some thing like that. And here's the biggie: I am a chicken and can not handle pain.
And that is my morbid thoughts of the day.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
The Battle
Everyday is a battle. A struggle to get out of bed. I'm at the point where I just do not care. I know I need to clean my apt but I don't. I know I need to call back the dude about the job and its like nah it can wait. I don't have the desire and or energy to do anything that needs to be done. I went to the doc today to get pain pills for my head and maybe sleeping pills so i could sleep. And I had every attention of talking to him about getting back on the depression pills that I decided to stop taking without telling anyone. But the doctor did not listen to me so now I have to try a new pill and I have no pain pills or sleeping pills and I was so upset, I didn't even bother to talk to him about the depression. I do not care at this point what is causing the headaches. I don't want to try some new damn pill to see if that helps them go away. I've lived with these things my whole and no one seems to know why. I'm tired of the new pills and new test. I just want a pain pill to take when its super bad like now. But no, damn doctor would not listen and so now I have a new damn pill to try and ANOTHER FUCKING MRI to do! I don't have the money for this shit and I'm just done. If the headaches get worse? Oh well. If the depression gets worse? Oh well. So please excuse me while I slide down this slip and slide head first and eyes open and land in the sweet darkness of not FUCKING caring anymore.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
August Goals....
I'm going to start trying to make goals every month. I don't know how this will work, since I tend to have the same goals every month! Ha, I don't like change.
*Write Daily
~blog, journal, email, anything. I just need to do it everyday
*Read at least a chapter a day.
~this is easy for me since I normally do this, but lately, I've only been reading a couple of pages. This is not going to help me and my quest of 100 books!
*Watch at least an hour of my DVR a day
~i am just so bad at watching my dvr. I love the thing but I just let it get all filled and then have to spend hours trying to catch up.
*Clean Clean Clean CLEAN
~i am just horrible at cleaning sometimes. I clean up all day at work and by the time I get home, the last thing I want to do is clean.
*Eat out less
~somedays I'm just so tired after work I just don't want to make dinner or my head is bad or I wake up late for work and have no time to make breakfast. I gave up fast food for lent, so I know I can do it.
*Drink less soda and drink more water
~this has been an ongoing battle for me since the begining of time
*Find a new job
*Write Daily
~blog, journal, email, anything. I just need to do it everyday
*Read at least a chapter a day.
~this is easy for me since I normally do this, but lately, I've only been reading a couple of pages. This is not going to help me and my quest of 100 books!
*Watch at least an hour of my DVR a day
~i am just so bad at watching my dvr. I love the thing but I just let it get all filled and then have to spend hours trying to catch up.
*Clean Clean Clean CLEAN
~i am just horrible at cleaning sometimes. I clean up all day at work and by the time I get home, the last thing I want to do is clean.
*Eat out less
~somedays I'm just so tired after work I just don't want to make dinner or my head is bad or I wake up late for work and have no time to make breakfast. I gave up fast food for lent, so I know I can do it.
*Drink less soda and drink more water
~this has been an ongoing battle for me since the begining of time
*Find a new job
Once Upon A Time...
There was a time, long long ago, where you were the one I turned too. The one that I longed for.
The person who I loved, who I thought I would marry.
The one that I wanted to start a family with.
Have the house with the white picketed fence.
I saw a future with this person.
Thank god, I woke up from that dream.
I was blinded by your lies and now my eyes are open.
Now when you open your mouth, it just reminds me of all the reasons I was smart enough to leave you.
You try to hurt me with words.
Too bad you've hurt me way more then that.
You have no control over me.
Last time, I let you back in my life.
I am DONE with YOU!
The person who I loved, who I thought I would marry.
The one that I wanted to start a family with.
Have the house with the white picketed fence.
I saw a future with this person.
Thank god, I woke up from that dream.
I was blinded by your lies and now my eyes are open.
Now when you open your mouth, it just reminds me of all the reasons I was smart enough to leave you.
You try to hurt me with words.
Too bad you've hurt me way more then that.
You have no control over me.
Last time, I let you back in my life.
I am DONE with YOU!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Awkward thy name is, Shanna
So today is the ex boy's birthday. Being a dumbass or nice, you decide, I sent him a message on fb. Everyone should be remembered on their birthday, there should be a rule. It's your damn day yo. Anywho, he messaged me back saying thanks and how he wish other things were going on. I assumed this was in regards to an ongoing family trauma. It was, however, I didn't know how bad the problem had gotten and pretty much kinda felt like I stuck my foot in my mouth. I mean, he didn't bite my head off, just kinda implied I was a dumbass. This is what you get for being nice to an a**hat.
Then at work, the awkwardness just expanded. Mike was telling me how I was going to have to talk to these managers that are coming next week to be trained on things. And they wanted to talk to me and ask me questions about how I get people to follow me and all this stuff. Hello, its because I don't take crap from any of the works. I get paid to make sure you are doing your job and you bet you bum I'm gonna make you do this s**t. I don't have patenice for other nonsesne. I digress.
Mike then started saying how he told them on a track to become a manager and basically in training for it. (I disagree but I shall keep that thought to myself) The whole time he is talking, I'm thinking, I wonder if I will get called for interviews from the jobs applied for yesterday.
And it only gets better because later Renee was talking about how excited she is about me coming back to institutionals. How things are changed and how I will love it. My response, I like cafe. And she just kept going on trying to convince me that it was going to be fun. First off, no its not. That s**t is boring as f**k. Second, I do not like dealing with damn teachers! Well, some of them anyways. Third, looking for a new job.
Oh wait, I haven't told any of them that. Hello awkward when they talk about my bn future and all I think is, oh god, I'm done.
And then after work, I stop by Walmart and my Walmart crush is there. He got a haircut. And I swear when he rings me up, I am so damn awkward. It's stupid. I can't win.
Then at work, the awkwardness just expanded. Mike was telling me how I was going to have to talk to these managers that are coming next week to be trained on things. And they wanted to talk to me and ask me questions about how I get people to follow me and all this stuff. Hello, its because I don't take crap from any of the works. I get paid to make sure you are doing your job and you bet you bum I'm gonna make you do this s**t. I don't have patenice for other nonsesne. I digress.
Mike then started saying how he told them on a track to become a manager and basically in training for it. (I disagree but I shall keep that thought to myself) The whole time he is talking, I'm thinking, I wonder if I will get called for interviews from the jobs applied for yesterday.
And it only gets better because later Renee was talking about how excited she is about me coming back to institutionals. How things are changed and how I will love it. My response, I like cafe. And she just kept going on trying to convince me that it was going to be fun. First off, no its not. That s**t is boring as f**k. Second, I do not like dealing with damn teachers! Well, some of them anyways. Third, looking for a new job.
Oh wait, I haven't told any of them that. Hello awkward when they talk about my bn future and all I think is, oh god, I'm done.
And then after work, I stop by Walmart and my Walmart crush is there. He got a haircut. And I swear when he rings me up, I am so damn awkward. It's stupid. I can't win.
Monday, August 8, 2011
Fairytales.....
People think I'm mean...bossy...bitchy...hard....negative.
I'm a little bit of all these things and more.
It's the more that people don't want to know or are shocked to know. That is if they take the time to know. Which they don't. I like to think it's their lost.
1) I love Unicorns
What a tough girl can't love unicorns? Unacceptable. Peagus falls under this but I like unicorns the best. The magic and the innocence.
2) I simply adore carosels. Can't spell it but I love them.
Part of me thinks this is due to my obession with Mary Poppins. Also, they are like the unicorns of the horse world. Fake colorful horses to be exact.
3) I heart gazbos. Can't spell it. Oh well.
They are beautiful. I would totally get married in one. The romance. Such much could be done. Magical
4) Fairytales
What a tough and indepedent girl can't enjoy a fairytale? Princess. Princes. Knight in shinny armor. Castles. True love. Flowers. Sparkles. Carriages. I want that fantasy, if only for a while.
I'm a little bit of all these things and more.
It's the more that people don't want to know or are shocked to know. That is if they take the time to know. Which they don't. I like to think it's their lost.
1) I love Unicorns
What a tough girl can't love unicorns? Unacceptable. Peagus falls under this but I like unicorns the best. The magic and the innocence.
2) I simply adore carosels. Can't spell it but I love them.
Part of me thinks this is due to my obession with Mary Poppins. Also, they are like the unicorns of the horse world. Fake colorful horses to be exact.
3) I heart gazbos. Can't spell it. Oh well.
They are beautiful. I would totally get married in one. The romance. Such much could be done. Magical
4) Fairytales
What a tough and indepedent girl can't enjoy a fairytale? Princess. Princes. Knight in shinny armor. Castles. True love. Flowers. Sparkles. Carriages. I want that fantasy, if only for a while.
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